Hi there visitor,
I am Xithis, however it doesn't really matter, as I am not using this name anywhere else. I found Neocities when I was looking for anything which would give a feel of the old Internet.I miss those times when it seemed more vast, alive ale full of interesting content. After some time I decided to create my own small space here, where I could share my thougds, interests and ideas, perhaps even find some like-minded folks. I guess there will be also a lot of nostalgia talk, complaining and lonigng for the years long gone.
When I was discovering the Net in the late 90s and early 2000s I was full of hope, ambitions, energy. Today after many years I feel burned out by the moern world, the state of technology and its influence on us, the corporations destroying our world. Unknowingly I destroyed my ability to focus, my attention span, lost energy and will to do anything meaningful, to create. I was a model consumer of shitty content an was too weak to set myself free. For a long time I was trying to return to my better self and I hope that slowly I will be able to recover.
So many abandoned projects, ideas, so many wasted opportunities to learn and to create. It amazes me that once I wanted to learn so many things, that I tried to develop myself in so many areas and over the years I left everything, my passions, my hobbies, my values.
After this a bit sad and depressing opening, it is time for a proper introduction
I am a guy in my later 30s who wants to connect again with his more creative side. I would like to treat this website as a small project on a long way to the revival of myself. I spent way to many years just doom scrolling. I need to have something I can work on regularly, something to return to in an environment better than all-connected today's net of social media, bots, AIs and scammers. It would help me to reconnect with my old hobbies and passions: technology, computers and video games. I hope that along the way I will go back to tinkering with Arduino, to programming and to gave dev: 3 things that I have on my list for many years, but I was always putting them aside. I am getting discouraged easy and fast, but maybe posting this stuff here, publicly, will somehow oblige me to keep up.
Enjoy the site, leave a comment if the guestbook is working, stay positive